What a weekend

So it was a really busy weekend.  Mark and his mom drove up this Friday with my stuff to put into storage.  During the week I had been helping my mom get ready for school and rearrange stuff in their house to make room for beds and my stuff.  It was exhausting.  Than Mark and his poor mom drove Friday and most of the night to get here on Saturday.  My wonderful Family was their to help him unload the truck, including my 84 year old Grandpa!  He is so awesome!  You don't find muh better people than him.  It was emotionally draining and physically exhausting.  Today and yesterday I felt zapped of energy. 

I truelly don't know how I survive somtimes if it wasn't for great family and friend support.  It's all the sweet notes I get on facebook, email, by text and my blog that help.  It's wonderful friends who envite me to lunch (even if I can't make it.) or the park (Thanks Melissa) and those who drop of little gifts.  Believe me I'm not always strong, their are plenty of crying spells, short temper, and some days just wanting not to go on!  But I'm keep on plugging on, and it's those few moments I have that I know everything is going to be ok, that keep me going as well.

While we where unloading the truck, my sweet sister took my two girls to ice skate.  They had the best time of their life, even though they fell.  They loved it and can't wait to go again.  Here are a couple of pictures m sister took with her phone.  He knew falling could be so muh fun.

Thank You

I just want to say thank you too all of you for your love, prayers and support.  I truelly appreciate it. 

Life

You know sometimes life doesn't really go how you plan. Sometimes there are wonderful surprises, sometimes, sad moments and some that just break you down and you really don't know how you get through them. Well I have a new favorite saying, it's: You know that saying when life gives you lemons make lemonade? Well sometimes you don't have any sugar and you need borrow some from your friends, sometimes a lot.


For the past 4 months that is exactly what I have been doing borrowing sugar. I also need to say when I was telling my counselor this she said and you also get some sugar from the Savior, if anything he is the spoon!  Which is so true.  I am in a situation I never thought I would ever be in, ever! In a million years.

You know I don't know how much to say on my blog, but I know those who read this are my friends, and maybe, just maybe you may wonder what happened to me. Well I am currently living in Utah with my parents and my kids. It is a situation that sounds great, but not when you are moving most of your furniture into Storage, and you husband is choosing to get a divorce.

I think I'm still in denial, somewhere deep down in side I believe that he will change his mind, that there just might be something I can do that will change his mind. But in reality it does not look like that is going to happen.  You know I still think that even as we go over the divorce paperwork.

Please forgive me if I haven't returned calls, or if I have avoided you, but I didn't really know what to say to most of you. It has been a very difficult road for me. Much of my life has been a blur. But I'm reaching out for support. And all the prayers I can get. My kids are having a hard time as well. But thanks to Amazing friends and a wonderful family support (from my family and Mark's) I believe I can make it through this.

For some reason my plan isn't the same as Heavenly Father's plan for me. And that is how I'm trying to see it. I am trying to have faith in this plan. I will probably not understand this plan for a long time. But someday I will. That's all I can hope for.

An article in the Ensign that has really helped me is by Pres. Uchtdorf, "Your Happily Ever After"   He talks about how each of us must go through our own trial and tribulation before we can live happily ever after.  This is one of his quotes. "Enduring adversity is not the only thing you must do to experience a happy life. Let me repeat: how you react to adversity and temptation is a critical factor in whether or not you arrive at your own “happily ever after.” 

So for some moments of my day I know I  will be able to live happily ever after someday.

Good Bye San Diego

Another thing I did while I was in San Diego was pack.  My mom and I spent many days sorting, packing and throwing things away.  One night was able go out with some friends and say good bye.  It was not fun to say good bye.  Especially under these circumstances.  but I'm so grateful for the good friends I have, some where unable to make it. But they have a been a great help to me.  We had a wonderful evening.  And thank you so much to those who helped pack!  I am so grateful.  I am blessed with great friends.  Also thank you for those who have helped with my kids while we where down there. OH I failed to mention that we where able to also go to one of my friends house for a great dinner on Sunday.  I felt so much love while I was there.  I'm really going to miss it.

Drive back to San Diego and Sea World

So after a month in Utah I headed home with my kids and my mom, we stopped in St., George to visit my grandma, my dad put us up in a hotel.  While we where swimming I was in the deep area with my big kids, and my mom was with Taylor and Drew, I thought.  Anyway I turn around and I can see just the top of someones head, I thought it was my mom under water.  But than I couldn't see Drew, and than it dawned on me that was Drew.  I hurried over and pulled him up he was not happy, pretty red in the face, much better than blue and started to cough up water.  Poor thing I felt so horrible. 

While in San Diego we had a fun beach barbecue with Some friends from Poway, and a bonfire and watched the sea World fire works afterwards. Also we went to sea World, and old town one more time.

The children's Parade

For the days of 47 celebration in Salt Lake City each year they have a children's parade a week before the real parade.  Stakes are invited to participate.  This year it was my parents stake, which aslo happens to be Marks. So the girls decided to walk with Grandma in the parade. It was a hot, hot humid day.  Afterwards they had a carnival for free for those who participated in the parade.  The kids where having a lot of fun jumping on bounce houses, working on little home depot projects, getting their face painted, all the while we where dying of heat.  It was just too hot that day.  But they had a fun. 

I love the contrast of my children's face painting, one a butterfly and the other a scary dragon.  It was pretty funny the person who painted Taylor's face happened to be a girl I played Soccer in High School with what are the chances?

Below Drew was so excited to ride on a train with Grandma.